Curiosity

One of the biggest themes in "Still Life with Iris" is curiosity. I could learn a lesson or two from the main character. Always asking questions, always risking everything for double or nothing. Sometimes I know an answer so well that I am afraid to hear it said aloud, so I don't bother asking in the first place. Sometimes I worry that if anyone has to actually tell me the answer, it will change. I can live with knowing. Or, I could. But now I'm starting to wonder what would happen if I did ask the questions. It's killing me to go day to day basing everything on a possibility, as close and as far as the ground eight floors below me, but nowhere near as stable. What ifs are not good for my health.